With the end of
the book behind us, there is no doubt that Jason went through some major
changes – one of the major changes being his perception on masculinity and the
ways in which it influences his day to day public life. In the beginning of the
book, we see Jason hyper-aware of what people think about him, his masculinity,
and what that means in terms of his popularity in social standings. This is
evident through his constant stray from anything or any activity that can be
seen as “gay”, thus, showing any sensitivity. By adopting this lifestyle, Jason
lives with many aspects of his life under the table. His poetry, his stammer,
trips to the movies with his mom, etc. are all concealed in order to keep this
reputation.
To contrast the
Jason at the beginning of the novel, we see a new character who isn’t afraid to
be his ‘Own Boy’. Someone who is sensitive, says words like beautiful, all
while maintaining a cool and somewhat sporty vibe thanks to the aide of Julia. Rather
than having to plot to prove his masculinity – either by withholding his true
life, or explicitly planning how to become favorable in front of the bros – Jason is content in being
himself, making moves only to satisfy himself rather than the groups, as well
as introducing life to the Jason that only the reader has seen. This
development is interesting but comes at the perfect time as he is about to
enter the new chapter of life – being 14, a new school, more life without
Julia, and life living with only his mother.
While the book
only covers a year of Jason’s life, a lot happens, and a lot changes.
Personally, 13 and 14 where the years when both my character and maturity rapidly
developed. There were definitely parts of my life that I tried to push away
from the spotlight but now recall and tell stories about. While Jason’s life hasn’t
necessarily been easy, you see him get stronger as well as more developed,
closer to the concept of Coming of Age… Its hard to say goodbye to him, I just
want to know how he turns out.